I made mistakes this morning. However, I got wonderful life lesson to have calm and happiness in life.
Reality hit me this morning
This morning I accidentally hit the Gojek-order button. Whereas, I just wanted to check the costs from Tebet to Co Hive 101 at Kuningan. And because of I was so curious about the blinking arrow on the order button,- I clicked it without realising that it was mean I ordered for a trip.
I felt so bad after that, moreover, when the driver texted me to make another order, so, his performa would not decrease.
Though I believed I was hit cancel-reason which would not cause the driver get bad score performa, but still, his request made me felt so unease.
And I didn’t know why, I also made another mistake when trying to order a trip to Bekasi Station an hour later. I choose to go to Bekasi Timur Station on Ampera street, instead Bekasi Station which on Djuanda . Thingking the different name merely cause the different entrance gate.
Of course, it was a mistake. Nowdays, Bekasi has three railways station, Tambun, Bekasi, and Bekasi Timur. And I haven’t noticed it yet.
On the way to Bekasi Timur Station, I tried to make affirmation, that this mistaken trip was my last bad luck, and everything would be fine, I would not arriving late at Co Hive.
Strangely, my affirmation didn’t work, I still felt unease. Somehow, I felt like my bad luck won’t stop.
And my bad luck was really still waiting for me, I missed the train which headed to Manggarai at that hour. I had to wait for another hour if I still want to depart from Bekasi Timur.
I immediatly calculated the possibilities and the time I need to arrive at Co Hive exactly at 10 a.m.
If I were caught the train on Bekasi Station, it would mean the fare I’ve spent to get to Bekasi Timur and the ticket entrance I’ve paid would be vain. But the possibility that I wouldn’t be late was bigger.
However, if I were insisted to wait for the 9.15 a.m train, it was clear I would be late and I wasted an hour for nothing.
I finally choose the first option, I’d rather arriving on time than not loosing my money.
As I went down to the station ground, I sighed and whispered “Okay, Wit, you have paid all the price of your mistakes today.”
Accepting reality does a key to calm and happiness
That moment, I began to surrender, whether I would arrive late or not, I realized it was the price I had to pay for the mistakes I’ve made. I was calmer, and my feeling was more relaxed.
The street was so jammed on the way to Bekasi Station. But I didn’t feel any worry anymore. I received all these discomfort on this morning as a consequence for what I’ve been choose.
That day, I learned, accepting the condition we face today, actually made everything better. Our heart will calmer, and more relaxe. Well, what do we need the most during a crisis, beside a calmness, right?
And thank God, though the street was so jammed, I didn’t miss the train which headed to Manggarai on Bekasi Station. I also able to arrive on time on Co Hive, even I also could read some articles on the train.
By accepting the things that happened to me that day, I closed my day happier. And I think, this is a great lesson-life as well as the most beautiful gift I received today.
So, one day if you’re feeling unease, or maybe you made a big mistake which would never forgive, please try to accept it. Doing so perhaps you will see a brighter way, or at least, relieving your unease.